Depression Poems

when im depressd or sad i often make up poems here are 2:
My Pain
My heart has been lied to,
broken up into little pieces of pain.
theres no where to hide from it,
theres no way to tell when it will next pounce.
It awaits me,
like a predator stalking its prey,
it follows me where ever i may go,
and its always there when i arrive.
Friendships of mine are always shattered,
just like my heart when it happens.
people say friendships are made to be broken,
i believe the people who say that are the people that break the friendships.
Everyday i cant bear to live another day,
yet everyday i manage to smile,
laugh and have a good time, or so i say,
behind this smile there is a frown.
Behind these tears of joy,
lies tears of sorrow and pain.
let that not fool you,
i will tell you when i am peaceful again.
onli when i forgive the ones that made me this way,
shall i ever b how i used to be.
real laughter and smiles all round,
it will be a long time before anyone sees the real thing, soon.
People say to me, forgive and forget,
but i cant forgive, and i shall never forget.
my heart doesnt lie,
it speaks the truth.
And the truth, even when most solemn, is wat i stick to,
and somtimes the truth hurts more than the pain inside me.
my life will never have new beginnings…..
so y wont this dreaded life ever end?
-Jc
thy blade
thy blade is my best friend,
its always there,
and its always near.
wheneva im sad,
i reach out for my faithful blade,
and it does wat has to be dun.
it slices throu my soft skin,
the red flesh beneath rippin apart,
the blood oozin out from my arm,
and the d*mn pain of it all stingin inside,
calmin me down, its so soothin.
i no i deserve it,
i always have and always will,
people blame me for everythin,
and i dun blame den,
ive always dun everythin wrong,
i no i do, and so does everyone else.
my life has com to nothin,
so would i care if i cut myself?
no afterall i deserve it,
i deserve everythin i get,
im alrdy filled up with so much pain,
wat would anymore matter?
people say dat i shouldnt cut myself,
its bad for my health emotionally and physically,
but why should i care?
people say a lot of things,
and bsides wat doesnt kill you makes you stronger rite?
my friends say they care,
but why should i believe them?
all my friends have dun is lie to me,
endlessly ova and ova again,
and if they realli did care for me,
then why werent they eva der when i needed them most?
people can say wat they want bout me,
whether im a fake or im real,
i dun care anymore,
my lifes probably gonna end soon anyway….
-Jc

Depression Survival

The chink in the armour that lets in depression will not mend itself, neither will it go away.
I was 28, employed, fiance, good circle of friends. Then it all went to ratshit. My Fiance got depressed, her mother was a controlling MF, her father was a bullying coward. So much time was taken up with a woman in denial that it affected my sleep, my eating, my ability to perform and my boss tells me I am not needed
She goes to her parents, I go to hell. It is indescribable what I went through. Pain, sobbing fits, loss of memory, room spinning every time I lay my head down, night terrors, suicidal thoughts, recklessness, driving at 150mph on the public roads and a complete disregard for my own health and wellbeing.
Antidepressants, sedatives that made me a zombie, counselling with a left wing lesbian who claims to know what she is doing but is only living out her unhappy life through my answers to her loaded questions, massive weightloss. I am dying and I do not care.
What happened? I had to pick myself up – I , me, not anyone else, even if it was their responsbility to do so. When you are isolated and alone, there is only you, no-one else.
Where am I now?
Company director, paramedic, and a different person.
I am much more calm, much more methodical. The over emotional part of me is burnt out like a dead lightbulb. External grief I am immune to. Is this a blessing? I don’t know, but I am good at my job, better than before. If someone is dying, I do what I can for them. If they are dead, I don’t take it home with me.
Internal grief, I still cry, and it still hurts, not about what caused me to become depressed, but other silly things. Then, I feel weak, but my biggest fear is that my sadness response will lead to depression once more
The fragile human condition.
I am a survivor, and it is survivable
Good luck
Steve

How I feel in depression

For 8 years now ive delt with depression, and it hurts me to say its gotten the best of me. I have no family as a result of my depression, from a early age i knew something was wrong with the world around me, soon it gave way to something was wrong with my world, and soon after that something was wrong with me. Entering Highschool forced me to toughen, Not to show my wounds. Having artistic skill i see as a curse kept me popular, i had friends from all groups who would compliment me and buy my english papers covered in blue and black ink. I became the one people asked “Is there something wrong you dont seem to smile much”. They were concerned and wanted to help, but from what i had learned in the past these people dont deserve my troubles, its not fare to give a normal happy person(most of the time girls) an insite of true sadness, i couldnt bring myself to hurt them as i had hurt my family into strangers. I finished highschool early around December of my senior year, I didnt say goodbye, in all sence i ran. I moved to a different city hoping not to be notice, the only work i could find was an artist for tatoo companies. I kept to myself and let my art explain why im this way. Soon after starting work a young women came to me offering a full ride to art school, i refused she asked why.I explained to her that my art is a prison, I explained that most peolpe leave there emotions on the page I stay in that state. As much as i tried not to the women and i fell in love, I gave all i could to not show her how hurt i was. But shes smart and wont take “im fine” for an answere, over 6 mounths i confided in her. Telling all that sadend me, its not always true to feel better after lettin it out i felt worse until one day i could take it i told her ide never forget her and she should forget about me. I moved back to the town i fled, old friends began to notice me back in town they all thought i had died or killed myself. some were psyciactry students and told me they could help i told them what i did in highschool, they re smarter now and wont let me hide, i know i should accept to help but dont want to hurt anyone else im alone and dont know what to do.
Eric

Depression Medication

Antidepressants or depression medication are drugs specially designed to overcome the problems in brain chemistry that cause depression.
Antidepressants are much more specific than painkillers. The SSRI drugs (marketed as Prozac, Seroxat, Lustral, etc) work specially to raise the levels of serotonin in the brain. Others raise the levels of noradrenalin. Lack of these mood-enhancing substances can cause depression. Raising their levels, a process that usually takes about 10 days, is usually very helpful.
There are side effects but they are often mild, short-lived and pale into insignificance as the depression improves.

While you were sleeping!!

Having trouble sleeping? Constantly tired and irritable? Read this and you’ll soon be nodding off…
• Quality of sleep is as important as the amount. It depends on two nerve centres — the sleep centre and the walking centre. When you begin to fall asleep, the walking centre gradually relaxes and allows the sleep centre to take over. Worries prevent the walking centre from letting go, so push them away.
• Unless your mattress is frim, you may not obtain refreshing sleep which give bones, muscles and mind a chance to recover. Sleeping on a sagging mattress can cause you to wake up tired. Your bed is your best friend; if too small, buy a bigger one, or twin beds, which you can place together.
• Vanquish sleepless nights by practising relaxation exercises, yoga or meditation. Learn to relax your muscles when you go to bed and substitute pleasants thoughts for your worries. Try deep, abdominal breathing and big yawns, which will make you feel tired.
• When sleep won’t come despite your efforts, get up and do something. Write letters, clean out drawers, cupboards or files, sort recipes or read a book. Only return to bed when you feel tired. If you still can’t nod off, laugh at yourself. Laughter is relaxing, so it may enable you to sleep.
• Expect to sleep when you go to bed by adopting a positive approach. Say: “I am really tired so I’ll sleep well tonight.” This encourages your mind to prepare for sleep.
• Try making love. Satisfying sex relaxes the body and encourages sound sleep
Zzzzz… nothing does you quite so much good as a good night’s sleep. It recharges the batteries of your body, provide energy and enthusiasm for the following day. Pleasant dreams!!

Why do anxieties and phobias occur?

Sometimes these disorders occur as a result of a severe, real stress such as a road traffic accident. Sometimes they occur because people set themselves unrealistic goals.

Signs of Depression

One or several of the symptoms listed below is usually present in depression. The severity and constancy of the signs make the illness diagnosable as depression. Often other people recognise depression before the person suffering. 

• Constant tiredness 

• Wanting to be in bed for long periods. 

• Long period of sleep or poor sleep. 

• early morning wakening. 

• Feeling worse in the mornings. 

• Over-eating 

• Loss of appetite 

• Lack of interest in sex 

• Lack of interest in things and people. 

• Becoming isolated from others 

• Loss of self-esteem and self-worth 

• feeling and thoughts of suicide 

• Wories that are going mad 

Depressive Illnesses

When we are physically ill, few of us hesitate to seek treatment but the case is very different if we become mentally ill.
Most people find it very hard to accept that they have a mental health problem. However disorders such as depression, anxiety and fobias are commonplace and in most cases, readily treatable. It is important not to suffer alone and to seek medical help if you are suffering from depressive illness.