Depressed
I’ve suffered from depression for over 20 years. I’m 31 and I know I need help but its not that easy. I have no one to talk to. My husband is so insensitive to the subject. He so does not understand what Iam going through. he doesn’t even try. reading some of these I totally understand. but in a way it hurts me even more, cuz if there are so many of us out there that feel this way, why does everyone else make it difficult for us to get help, they judge and laugh. My biggest regret in life is that I didn’t kill myself when I was a teenager. I hate life, I always have. Back than I convinced myself life would get better, boy was I wrong.I think in society it would have been more acceptable to kill myself back than. I have a son and I know he would be better off with out me. Iam probably the worst mother in the world. You think after I kicked a hole in the wall that that would have been a wake up call for my husband and he would have become more caring, ya right.
I have never said any of this stuff before in my life. Does it make me feel better? NO
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From–Gina Scheel
Gina, Are you still following this thread? You sound severely depressed. Have you had professional treatments?
I also have severe depression and I have been battling it since 1973. I have a similar problem with my wife not understanding how, and not able to deal with it.
Hang in there, your children are NEVER better off without you.
You can email me if you feel up to it. I found having someone at a distance to communicate with is helping me cope with the depression and my spouse.
Hang in there,
Brian