I'm new here...and I'm pretty sure I have depression
Posted 27 February 2007 - 08:08 PM
I've only thought about suicide once, when my mom told me that I make her feel so unloved and uncared for. THAT killed me, so I was frozen in place, just thinking, "If I died now I'd just put her out of her hatred towards me." I didn't act on it or anything. But like I know she loves me and everything, but I always push her away and say mean things that I regret moments later.
Every night I write in my diary about how I felt that day...there's almost never any good feelings.
Today I tried to go to my health teacher about it, because we're learning about depression right now, but he wasn't there. I think I'll try tomorrow, but it's embarrassing. I don't know what to do!
Posted 27 February 2007 - 10:21 PM
i guess i cant give you any advice but help you go through things...
you seem like you may have been a really happy person on the outside but maybe on the inside something was bothering you when i was your age and at school i was the one who had all the parties at school and everyone came but i used to feel like they only spoke to me when i was haven a party never at school.
then i felt like i didnt really have any true friends.
if there is anything i can do to help let me know ok
Posted 27 February 2007 - 11:10 PM
Posted 28 February 2007 - 04:56 AM
never really got any help for any of my problems up until now when im getting older and it gets harder to ignore hey do u have msn hotmail or something?
Posted 01 March 2007 - 03:06 AM
Vulgar, yes, but words are only a form of expression, and one day the world will acknowledge that. Love your parents, let them know that you really are human. Do you have a girlfriend? Go spend time with her. Girls are much more open to feelings, and if I had a special somebody that I could share my deepest feelings with, I wouldn't be here speaking with all of you. On a similar note, if you think you have something special for somebody you know, and are afraid to speak to him/her (just being P.C.), just do it. Like right out of a children's story. You have to ask them.
dont bend to society, let society bend to you.
Posted 01 March 2007 - 08:15 PM
...haha and I'm a girl
Posted 02 March 2007 - 01:42 AM
Edit: On the note that youre a girl. in today's society, its extremely hard for a girl to please her friends compared to guys (though dont get me wrong, we've got our own, separate problems), so do your best to let your friends know what you feel (especially if you are being bullied )