This topic intrigued me because I am not a religous person, but have had spiritual experiences that prove to me that there is some higher power out there whether it be external or internal, that we can call to in times of need.
In one night of deep despair, frustrated and wanting to give up I also acquired a horrendous toothache. I wanted to exit the pain, to have it done. I seriously could not take another thing. I bawled ( a real ugly cry.. snot running out my nose, face exploding, eyes swelled shut) and got in the shower just to have another sensation. I stood there under the water and said out loud, "Help, I CANNOT do this anymore, please, HELP", and bawled some more. After about five minutes I got out of the shower, threw up (because of the severe gut wrenching crying) and went to brush my teeth.....and noticed my toothache was gone. Yes, gone...not kidding or exagerating, gone. I was amazed. I closed my eyes and said, "thank you, bless you" and went to bed and slept well.
As I said, I don't know if God is external or internal. I think sometimes when we get so caught up in frustration and despair about our illness and its effects on our lives we forget that we are worthy of good. We actually begin to live our illness and collapse into believing that is our reality. It isn't. Whether it be God or our own Spirit or Self, something wants good for us. I think prayer is our way of reaching inward somehow to access that part of ourselves that isn't tainted by the effects of our illness. It is the part of us that is US, the one remember being before. Or it is a true and loving God that carries us through the toughest times until we are again strong enough to carry ourselves. (Like in the famous Footprints poem).
God doesn't give up, there's part of ourselves that don't give up....it keeps reaching through it all to find the light and goodness that we know we have for ourselves. We cannot do this in the frame of mind that our illness puts us in. We have to give up that control of trying to fix ourselves and invite our God or our SELF to help us heal.
That's my two cents....if you can't tell, feeling awfully philisophical today....sorry