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Manic Bipolar
By Ashley
18 Years Old
I am 18 years old and about 7 months ago I found out that I was Bipolar. I was Manic when I was admitted into to the hospital for the first time for 3 weeks. When I was manic depressed I was very sucicidal and depressed all the time, and I cut my wrists several times, and I think the hardest part about my illness was not knowing what was wrong with me. But now I know and its a bit easier but I was admitted into the hospital in November of 2004 for depression and I was in there for 2 months. I am currently in grade 12 and I am very smart, and , missing my last year of school and not being with my friends was very hard, and knowning that I am not going to graduate when I have the potential to be a 80% average student is tuff. Well while I was in the hospital from November 2004 to January 2005 my Grandma died which was even harder on me. It was hard to grieve while I was in the hospital but things got better once I got out. I went back to school, started excercising, and doing stuff with friends. But recently in the last month of March I have gone into another Low phase (depression phase, and I am starting to have suicidal thoughts again. So my docter decided to put me on an anti-depressent for three weeks and he said if it doesnt work I will go back in to the hospital and this time try etc (electric shock therapy). Well my three weeks is up and the ant- depressent has worked a little but not to the extent that I wanted it work and im still unhappy but if I go back into the hospital I miss my last two months of school. And I will not pass anything, I will have to quit my job, and I may not be able to go to Scotland like I was planning to.
Posted by Ashley : April 11, 2005
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